my dreams?

it's kinda boring staying at home
after days of studying, it seems weird that i dont have to study now
life seems aimless and boring
and i started to think, what will i be in the future?
a doctor? i hope so
a violinist? nah, not with my skills
maybe a scientist, but it seems quite impossible
but i would like to travel around the world, meeting different people, learning different cultures...
wow,
it must be fun!
someday i will make my dreams come true
how? maybe by being a volunteer-doctor and travel to different country to help people in pain
but i am not sure,
i don't know,
well,
no one knows, i guess.

update

today is 17th of August.
wow, i can't believe how time flies!
i am feeling ecstatic right now at the thought of 'balik kampung'
i miss my kampung really much ^^
people there are really nice.
i will enjoy this short holiday as much as i can after all those trial exams
i didnt do well in my BM again
it sucks
guess i have to work harder

bored

this is not really a long holiday,
but i started to miss school
staying at home is boring.
ever since i fail my bm objective,
my self-confidence had fled away
and now i have difficulties to build my confidence
i am a pessimistic person(that's a fact!)
can someone teach me how to be more optimistic?

boo...

recently, i am dissapointed with myself
what am i doing?
i know i cant be 100% perfect,
and sometimes things just go wrong,
but i still feel low
maybe i should try harder to forget things that have passed.
ah. just forget about it.
i have try my best